And So It Goes - Billy Joel - One Final Serenade: The Songs of Billy Joel (Billy Joel Fan Site)

And So It Goes
(Storm Front) (1989)

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"My silence is my self defense." © 1989 Sony BMG Music Entertainment.
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So I would choose to be with you
   That's if the choice were mine to make
   But you can make decisions too
   And you can have this heart to break

The closing song on Storm Front is the heart-breaking ballad "And So It Goes." The song is a about a doomed relationship or imminent break-up. Billy originally wrote it in 1983 when he was briefly dating model Elle McPherson. He has said that he knew the relationship was not going to last because of various career and professional commitments that each had. It was not released on 1983's An Innocent Man, however, since it did not fit into the retro style of that album (one wonders why it was not put on 1986's The Bridge).

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

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Fortunately, Billy did release it on Storm Front because it is one of his most moving songs. The words and emotions are so raw, you can hear his heart cry ("every time I've held the rose, it seems I only felt the thorns" and "I would choose to be with you, that's if the choice were mine to make"). He is at his most vulnerable and open. He is openly telling her that "you can have this heart to break." She did.

As music critic John McAlley wrote in Rolling Stone in 1989: "In dramatic fashion, Joel provides the otherwise tempestuous Storm Front with a coda of exquisite grace. The hymnlike "And So It Goes" takes the record's turbulent emotions and stills them in a moment of quiet revelation. Accompanied only by a piano and a discreet synthesizer, Joel proposes emotional vulnerability and reconciliation to life's uncertainties as a route to secular redemption. It is a note of startling maturity, at once mournful and bracing. And as the final word on an album that takes a serious look at a troubled world, it reflects the hard-earned wisdom of a no longer innocent man."

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The spare piano accompaniment is perfect for the subject and mood of the song. The music is anthemic, almost like a funeral dirge or hymn. It could have been an early 20th century American popular song, or a Scottish or Irish folk paean from the 17th century. On the Sirius XM channel in 2016, Billy explained that when he was young he had a songbook of folk songs - the Fireside Book of Folk Songs (right). One of the songs in the book, the old English folk ballad "Barbara Allen," inspired the music to "And So It Goes." Listen to Billy discuss it, below video (left). See a video of Blackmore singing "Barbara Allen," below. Both are beautiful songs.

"And So It Goes" was released as a single, reaching #37 on the Billboard charts, but is often overlooked on collections and discussions about Billy Joel's work. In an interview on the Howard Stern Show in 2010, when asked which of his songs he feels is least appreciated, Billy played "And So It Goes." Still, many school choirs and other groups have covered the song. Jennifer Warnes does a great cover version on her 2001 album, The Well. Guitarist Tommy Emmanuel also does a nice version. Two of my favorite instrumental cover versions, by Lily Clarke on acoustic guitar and Jori Chisholm on bagpipers are shown in videos, below.

Storm Front may have been a blues-rock album with an esoteric number one hit ("We Didn't Start The Fire"), but "And So It Goes" is a reminder that Billy Joel can still render the most beautiful ballad.

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